The Line I Can't Forget.....

Normally, I would be posting a blog about how I felt about tonight's Grey's Anatomy episode as I usually do. However, ever since watching the show tonight (or rather, one SCENE of the show tonight), I'm going to forgo what I regularly blog about because this simply won't leave my head...

There was a line that Meredith Grey said tonight when she was talking to a patients mom.

"You have to change her story!"

It was that line that I remember and honestly, I don't remember much about the show after that (thank goodness for tivo).

"You have to change her story...." Call me nuts, but for hours now I've been wondering, is that what God was thinking when He was writing Patrick's story? "You have to change her story...."

I know where my story was headed before that night in September. And God did too...Long before I did. So, He also knew that Patrick was going to be the one to change it.

And I'm beginning to think that perhaps that is why every effort I have made to try and get my story and thanks to Patrick has failed...Perhaps nobody else REALLY gets it. Perhaps they think I'm being dramatic or just another fan. And I'm slowly resigning myself to the fact that my dream of thanking him, of him hearing my story will never be.

I don't know anymore if dreams come true, I know this is my biggest dream, but I also know that whether it does or doesn't will never change the impact Patrick has had on my life and I thank God daily for him.

"You have to change her story...." And that's exactly what Patrick did.

Thanks for Praying!

Thanks for all of the prayers for Amanda and Mark! I had an e-mail from Mark waiting for me when I logged on just a few minutes ago...Taylor Marie arrived today (the 29th) at 12:30 pm. He wrote that Amanda and Taylor are both doing well!

That's all I know right now. I'm sure more will be posted on their blog as soon as they are able! Thank you all again for your prayers and please keep praying for them as Amanda recovers and the new family of the adjusts to everything!

Thank You dear Lord for this precious new life! Please continue holding her and her parents in Your Arms and may Your presence be felt daily as you walk beside each of them. Thank You for the awesome plans you have in store for Taylor and Amanda and Mark as they grow together with You in the center of their lives! I ask all of this in Your Name. Amen.

Prayer Request For A Friend

Please be in prayer for one of my closest friends, Amanda and her husband, Mark tomorrow (Tuesday, the 28th). Amanda is scheduled to be induced tomorrow night to welcome their first child!

Amanda and my sister, Kimberly were best friends for years and for so much of their friendship, I was simply part of the deal as Kimberly's younger sister. Amanda and I just grew close because we were together so much. She is, in many ways, like another sister to me. She's an incredible woman of God and such an encouragement to me in my own walk with Christ as she prays for me and believes FOR me when I simply can't. I'm so blessed to have her in my life.

Amanda and Mark have been on quite a journey. Feel free to read about it on their blog. You will be encouraged and touched, I promise!

Please pray for them as they go into the hospital. Pray for the labor and delivery to go smoothly for everyone, and pray for the doctors and nurses who will be caring for them. Pray for strength, peace and protection over Amanda. Pray for Mark, that he will be able to be there in the ways Amanda needs him to be And pray that baby Taylor arrives healthy and safely!

Thanks in advance for your prayers!

Latest Blog Music

The song is entitled, "My Desire" by Jeremy Camp. I heard it for the first time today and it just seems to sing the words of my heart right now. I pray that I AM being used...In any and every way for HIM! The lyrics for anyone interested:

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the king

You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind

You want to be set free today
Then lay it all down before the king

This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near
And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

All my life I have seen
Where you've take me
Beyond all I have hoped
And there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all you've done
So I give my hands to use

Faith of a Child

My five year old niece was playing a computer game in our study this afternoon. I was in my room working on my computer when I hear her call my Mom into the room. Apparently, she had clicked on another game and for some reason, the directions to the game were in Japanese. I heard my Mom tell her, "Go get Nat-Nat, she might know how to fix it." I hear Alexis gasp and ask my Mom, "Nat-Nat knows Japanese???"

If only I had half the faith in myself that Alexis has in me! :)

GA Thoughts: "Sweet Surrender"

My show was back last night after nearly a month long hiatus and according to Shonda Rhimes, every episode from now until the finale (on May 14th) is new! So, here are my highlights from last nights episode entitled, "Sweet Surrender."

* MerDer talking in bed in the mornings discussing wedding types and rings and whatnot is just too cute! I've always loved their red sheets too!

* Line of the night: from a slightly panicked rambling Mer to Derek: "We will have bridesmaids in pink taffeta, and YOU will be wearing a top hat with a morning coat, and somebody will be singing wind beneath my freaking wings!" ROTFL!!! That was hysterical!

*Line of the night runner up from Derek after talking to Izzie about the wedding plans, he says to Mer: "Apparently a morning coat is non negotiable. Also you and I have to make time for ballroom dancing lessons..." LOL! The look on Mer's face and the way Derek totally caved...So funny! DWTS here they come! LOL!

* Very clever way of working around Chyler Leigh's pregnancy with Lexie eating all the time!

* LOVED Bailey tonight! Actually, I always love Bailey, but I love how her character was tonight with that precious little girl...I had to leave the room when she was dying, but I love how Bailey is with kids...Simply fabulous! I smell trouble for her marriage though, and that's sad.

* I really really like Arizona. Love her character. (Sorry, don't know the actress' name offhand).

* Amy Madigain is BACK!!!!!!!! LOOOOOOVE her!!!!!!! GA should totally keep her!

* How awesome was it to see the Grey Sisters bonding tonight?! Especially at the end of the show. The look on Lexie's face when she realized she was going to be a bridesmaid....Priceless! Love it and love that we're finally seeing them come together as sisters. Hopefully that continues!

* Poor Mer having to try on all those dresses when it's not really her thing....I for one can TOTALLY see MerDer getting married in scrubs in the SGH chapel amid the hospital chaos. It's just...Them. And maybe THEN we'll see the ring on her finger??? DIDN'T like that!

* Loved the song that played at the end of the show!

* Happy that Mark and Derek appeared to have made up.

Next week looks intense and I can already see many parallels just from the preview alone. Looking forward to it!

Permission to Squeal, Please!

Ellen Pompeo (Meredith, Grey's Anatomy) is pregnant!!!

I want to squeal for a lot of reasons: 1) Because seriously, Ellen is PREGNANT! That in itself is reason to do a snoopy dance around the room. 2) Kara and I were RIGHT...We've speculated for weeks that perhaps she may be. It's FINALLY out and we are free to squeal! And 3) STORYLINE POSSIBILITIES!!!!!!!!!! Oh my flippin' goodness....Can you IMAGINE?!?!

Now, I have NO idea if Ellen's pregnancy will be written into the show but NOW is the PERFECT time to write it in if Shonda wants to give them a baby. Let's look at the facts, shall we?

* Meredith and Derek recently had a discussion about babies. Meredith brought it up FIRST and didn't even flinch. She's ready! And when she questioned Derek about it, he wanted her babies.... "All of them." He's ready!

* Remember the house made out of candles? (As if you could forget!) There's a "room where our kids could play!" THEY ARE READY!!!!

*PD has said in countless interviews that he's ready for Meredith and Derek to be married and start having babies. He says it would be an interesting dynamic for Meredith to balance marriage, motherhood, and work. He's right! It would put them dealing with issues that REAL couples deal with, not to mention give them a very dynamic storyline they could play any number of ways. I REALLY hope Patrick has voiced his opinion to Shonda...And I hope she really listens.

* Meredith and Derek are now engaged. Another step to readiness....

* My guess is that a wedding or "union" -as a certain favorite actor of mine referred to it- will take place between them before the season is over. No, I don't think it will be during the 1ooth episode, but I believe it WILL HAPPEN.

So...How's that song go...."First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes...." I think you get the picture. It would be nice to actually see a couple married BEFORE baby but that's the traditional part of me coming out. My POINT being....Everything is there, the stage is set, all Shonda has to do is take advantage of it!

I know there are reasons why a baby might NOT fit into the equation....So, I know there is a VERY good possibility that Shonda won't write it in BUT....Right now, I have every reason to hope...And of course, every reason to squeal.....

Congratulations, Ellen and Chris! *SQUEAL*