Michael W. Smith recently tweeted this on his twitter page: "Everything about your life hinges on the answer to one simple question: Do you know how loved you really are?"
Only days later a similar question was posed by someone else..."Don't you understand that Christ DIED for you?? Don't you get it??"
And my answer to both of those questions is: No.
I don't know how loved I really am. I don't know, BECAUSE no one on this earth can love me as much as God does. I can try to understand it, and I can try to know how loved I really am but I'm doing so in my tiny little human understanding....My brain CAN'T KNOW. I CAN'T understand.
I don't know ANYONE on this earth that knows me so intimately that they know the number of hairs on my head, that they count every single tear, that they think about me so much that their thoughts about me out number the grains of sand. I don't know ANYONE who adores me like He does. And no, I DON'T get it. I don't get how He would die for someone like me. Someone who fails Him daily, who has sinned, turned my back on Him numerous times, and done COUNTLESS other things that are so unworthy of Him dying for me. And to know He would do it all again if He had to, and He would do it all again, even if I was the ONLY one He had to die for....That He would. I DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT!
But here's the thing: I'm NOT SUPPOSED TO!!! WE are not supposed to understand it!
There's another quote that my friend Scott Crenshaw recently put on his Facebook WAY before any of the above questions were posed and it keeps coming back to me. I have since put it on a sticky note and stuck it to my desk:
"If God were small enough to be understood, He wouldn't be big enough to be worshiped."
We're not supposed to understand! His love is THAT big!! It's beyond ALL human comprehension! If we understood the things of God, would we still stand in awe of Him? It's like knowing how a magician performs a magic trick....We're not so impressed by it when we know it works.
So, if you're like me and don't "get it" or don't understand His love for you.... Relax. It's okay. You're not supposed to. Just know that you ARE loved and adored in a way no other can love you! Isn't that an INCREDIBLE feeling?!
