Confidence? Where Art Thou?

"Down on your confidence, it's a fight that won't let go. But you've got to realize that you're alright." -Michael W. Smith-

I'm having a crisis of confidence, guys. Could you pray for me?

-My volunteer job is getting harder and harder to continue. An incident happened last week that has me REALLY just wanting to stop doing it. It's sad to feel that way about a place that supposed to be grounded in Christian principals but that you see very little of that lived out. I work on Tuesday's and Thursday's so if you could send up a few extra prayers on those days, that would awesome....Thanks!

-People tell me all the time what an inspiration I am. I feel like lately I've let everybody down by being such a "Negative Nat." I've tried to keep my FB posts and twitter updates as positive as possible, but I saw someone in town the other day who told me, "I see your Facebook posts all the time. Are you a little bummed out lately?" So apparently, I'm not doing a very good job. If you're one of those people, and I've disappointed you, I'm so sorry.

-I feel like I'm annoying everybody lately, but everybody's too nice to tell me so I've kinda chilled on texting or e-mailing people. I don't know WHY I feel like that. It's just a Satan filled lie...Deep down I KNOW this, but there's there's that tiny sliver of doubt that has me wondering if there's any truth to it.

-I've been questioning too who's being real with me and who's just telling me what I want to hear. I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I want to be genuinely loved, not merely tolerated.

And now I'm about to post this and all I can think is how many of you will read this and think, "Wow, she's really NOT the positive person I thought she was....."

She'll be back....She's just struggling a bit right now. Hang in there with me! Thanks!